#like baby what do they do to u to make u so reactive!!!!! poor thing

[pathologising]

trying to befriend the neighbors angry pitbull through my window he is NOT happy

[subskz]

doing this trend (https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZT8HBPjPm/) with each member. what would their reactions be? imagine lightly squeezing their bulge and seeing them jolt a little and squeeze their thighs together… i feel like hannie would have a massive boner while filming the tiktok LMAO. and then jerking them off with ur new set of nails after recording <3

link! (semi-nsfw)

ohh i’m obsessed w this 😽

hannie would definitely be fighting for his life the most out of all the boys lmao he would be so embarrassingly hard after just one attempt at filming, you’d be able to wrap your fingers fully around the outline of his dick through his sweatpants and feel him throb so eagerly in your hands. it makes showing off your nails kinda difficult though bc he’d be squirming around like crazy, and the longer it goes on, he eventually starts whining up a storm too. if you “accidentally” dragged one of your nails along the shape of his bulge to create a delicious friction w the material of his pants, his hips would buck up so fast. he’d beg for you to please just hurry up and finish already bc he's starting to get so hard it aches, but he keeps messing up your videos like the needy lil thing he is. which ofc makes for the perfect opportunity to insist that you won’t touch him until you get it right. he’d be a desperate, twitching wreck by the end of it, whining your name, tugging helplessly at your wrist and trying to guide it under the waistband of his pants. it’s up to you whether u wanna indulge him, or keep messing w him until he breaks down into tears of frustration before you finally wrap your pretty manicured fingers around his leaking cock

jinnie and chan would also be one step away from losing their minds if you did this to them hehe. their thigh muscles would be clenching so tight, using all their strength not to close in on each other and rub together every time you so much as brush over their crotch. channie especially would be so embarrassed w himself for getting turned on over smth like this, even when that’s very clearly your intention here…poor baby giggles nervously when you drape your fingers over his clothed dick and he does his best not to draw attention to the growing tent in his sweatpants. he’d be so sweet too, trying to give you compliments on your nails as you show them off, but his voice would crack pitifully when he speaks and his ears would be on fire. his eyes would be flickering all over the place too bc he knows staring too hard at where your hand is will make him start to short circuit. it'd be esp fun to tease him by forcing him to look bc you keep asking him questions like "is that a good angle? do they look nice like this? maybe i should spread them out more" followed by channie having to smack his hand over his mouth as a last ditch attempt to hide his shaky, pathetic groan when you stretch your fingers out over his bulge. him, hyunjin, and jisung would be very lucky that you’re putting music over the video bc they’d no doubt be letting out weak gasps and whimpers the entire time <3

jinnie would have such entertaining reactions, you can see the torment all over his pretty face from the very first take. his thick brows scrunch together and he bites down so hard on his lower lip until it swells up and the skin nearly breaks, you’d think he was getting the head of his life instead of just feeling your fingers tease him through his clothes. you’d probably also have to refilm the video a few times to get him to sit still for you bc his body is ridiculously reactive, but it just gets worse every time. once hyune’s gotten worked up, it's hopeless to calm him down again bc he’s hypersensitive to every little touch and gets so in his head, all he can focus on is how badly he needs you to keep touching him. feeling your fingers dance playfully over his bulge and seeing how your pretty nails gleam under the light, he can’t help but start to push his hips into your palm, whining low in his throat thinking abt them wrapped around his cock. a cute lil wet stain might even start to seep through his sweatpants <3

jeongin would love (and hate) this trend the most out of all the boys hehe i think he’d really go crazy whenever you get your nails done bc this boy lives for the aesthetics. he’d already be admiring them w stars in his eyes and might even get a lil touchy just to hold your fingers in his hands and run his pads over the fresh coat. so when you innocently ask him to film a video w you, he’d agree without question…only for him to realize a split second too late what ur evil plan really is. he'd sound so cute and clueless the moment it dawns on him, stammering out a sudden "w-wait, like that!?” but as soon as he catches sight of your fingers resting over his crotch, his brain turns to mush and he forgets how to speak. he’d be giggling breathlessly a lot like channie bc doesn’t know what else to do, and getting him to keep his legs from closing in on each other is a lost cause. he’d let out the cutest wail of embarrassment when he realizes how turned on he’s gotten, hiding behind his hands and huffing abt what a perv you are…which ofc you spin back around on him bc he’s the one who looks ready to ruin his underwear over some nails 🥰 he’s so irresistible when he gets flustered like that though, so you make it up to him by giving him the perfect view of your new nails sliding up and down his dick. he’d be so mesmerized by the sight and would definitely cum much faster than usual…and since he’s so into it, he can lick his mess off your fingers afterwards too~

[clairyclue]

my thoughts on Majestic Rep’s RTC

it’s a lot sorry guys

tags: @jencattv @ray-winters @keatondj

(spoilers below the cut)

you can tell when ocean starts questioning her attitude and how conflicted she is, especially right after WTWN 

jane gets startled so easily poor baby

noel’s riffs are amazing!! (noel’s lament)

the choreo is awesome too!

mischa is a such a sweetie he genuinely cares so much about the other choir members 

mischa flipping ocean off before “i love you guys” haha

constance’s finger guns after “fornication” 

constance laughing at ocean out down jokes and then switching up is so funny 

i love oceans line delivery she’s like three seconds snapping i love it 

jane going from being able to move

fluidly during the songs to being stiff again she looks so confused every time 

ricky. just ricky ❤️

connie i thought the crystal meth joke was funny 

^^ i love all the dialogue in that scene i don’t remember it in original cast slime tuts 

fuck mischa’s adopted parents fr you can tell his anger is a defense mechanism because when he feels comfortable with the choir he’s so sweet!!

MISCHA FALTERING WHEN SAYING HES TALIAS FIANCÉ 

“THANK YOU FOR KILLING MY MOTHER AND INDIRECTLY KILLING ME” 💔💔💔

MY LIFE IS AWESOME 

(i’m gonna start categorizing by song now i don’t have much for WTWN and Noel’s Lament so)

jane dope 🔥🔥

mlia gives mad sibling karaoke vibes 

karna i see u bopping along 

the singing too is immaculate 

OK JANE i see u dropping it down 

TALIA

this mischa genuinely seems so into it he deserves so much credit in way of character work 

the way he gets all bashful during his Talia monologue 💓

background harmonies (constance is carrying and also i can hear her so well!!)

again riffs!! well done 

the choreo goes crazy!! this applies to all the songs tho 

the arms making a steeple 🥺😩

THE ENDING RIFFS 💔💔💔😩😩😩😭😭🥺🥺😞😞

the projection i’m gonna end it all 💔

MISCHA FUCKING CRYING INTO NOELS SHOULDER HELPHELPHELP and even once the dialogue moves on he’s still clinging to him and Noel rubs his back

“ocean why aren’t you talking right now it’s weird” (ricky in the bg: ☝️)

i love u connie awkwardness 

jane is so reactive to everything she hears like a little puppy 

“OKAY!! 😁😁😁😁” (autismo lore dump time)

oceans face when he’s explaining it 😀 to 🙁 to 😟

AND THEN SHE FUCKING MOANS U CATHOLIC FREAK (no offense to catholics reading this)

noel’s face me too bud 

ricky’s lore is kinda gross just because it wasn’t always this way. but sigh what can you do

SPACE AGE BACHELOR MAN:

ricky my little freak boy ❤️

spacedolls realness coming through 

“sure…😬”

rip ricky u would have loved therian tiktok 

little curtain face thing “it gets weird now :)” (•.•)

“THAT SON OF A BITCH !! 😡😡😡”

the emotion behind his lines the whole time tbh adds to the comedy (“i thought i told them !! 😕😕”)

the ending “b-b-b- bachelor man!” (“meow!!”)

we love u mischa hype man (again sweetest man alive)

constance’s “oh man!” was so agressive i loved it the one in the soundtrack seems so sad. this constance is less shy more awkward and i love it

THE BALLAD OF JANE DOE:

i know i know. but choreo. 

vocals!! ily jenna 

bg vocals as well!! 

the mixing 🥹

OK THE OPT UP????

the choreo at “a choir never complete” reminds me of the opening funeral scene from beetlejuice. definitely fits the vibe!

the borderline growl/anger in “and i’m asking why lord” yes!!!!

she sounds so desperate. crying. 

“does no one care?!” again the anger and emotion!

THE BG VOCALS AT THAT ONE PART SO GOOD THEYRE ANGRY FOR HER IT SEEMS 

the roller coaster. them being sucked back into it choreo wise. reverse looking. 

THE HIGH NOTES 💋💋💋

ocean being the one to put the birthday costume on means a lot to me. idk

ocean comforting her too 🥰🥰

janes birthday claps!

SNATCH !! 🧁🧁

ocean doing connie’s hair ❤️

savannah scene!! 

we don’t get to see it but i know the waltz is happening 

“ur ma best frand 💓“

^ and then ocean immediately snaps my heart again. 

“no you don’t ocean. 😕”

i understand oceans monologue she just. executed it badly. 

constance 😝 beat her ass girl 

“or they’ll call you a cow” baby. come here. 💔

constance. i get you. i get u connie baby. 

JAWBREAKER/SUGAR CLOUD:

oceans face ❤️ i don’t know how to describe it but she looks. proud. and her sitting almost re-evaluating everything in the back. (assuming)

ricky giving her the mic ❤️

HER GIGGLE

them scooting her around aghhhahahdhdbdheh

cloud props!

CONFETTI AND BALLOONS AND IM SMILING LIKE A FOOL

jane looks so happy with her ballon skipping around 🥹

the ending!! ILY CONSTANCE 

mischa helping her down awww

ocean and connie hug!!

can’t forget the nischa hug

ocean losing her voice inflection and sounding so genuine. so scared. so raw. 

janey when she gets chosen 🥹🥹

ocean and connie hug 2

JANE REACHING FOR RICKY SNDBDJWKDJDKF

ITS NOT A GAME/ITS JUST A RIDE

crying over the ending brb 

the slideshow will always get me 

something about the whole scene. houfhhhhhhh

“and you give and choose while you live and lose” and the lines preceding it get me 🥹

ARE THOSE REAL VIDEOS OF JENNA?!?!?!

KARNA SOUNDING LIKE THEYRE GONNA CRY

the first lines of it’s just a ride. no music. so raw sounding 🥹 the teary voices. the haphazard harmonies. 

ocean and mischa holding each other. big bro little sis 💓

“WOO!”

THEIR FREESTYLE DANCING! 

they’re having so much fun. they’re dead but they’re LIVING for the first time. 

all of the hand holding. my babes. 

[lollybliz]

Rate everyone in the chaos gc's feral-ness? (You don't have too!)

o shit o shit what are 1-10 scales idfk here we go I guess

we gon go in the order they are in on the server screen rn cus my brain is made of swiss cheese and if I tried to remember everyone authentically id forget someone and whether they would tease me or not is questionable but *I* would never be able to let *myself* live that down.

@no-one-told-you-life-was-gay talks a lot of feral but I would say is mostly Big Protecc and sometimes a bit of a pot-stirrer. lotta steam and kettle whistling but xey’re mostly just warm and cuddly, sorry, I’m here to fuck up your reputation. big softy, big cares about friends and platonic spouses, does threaten murder or resurrection if relevant but most of the feral comes from the angst aus, and those tend to be more sad than feral. 8/10 high, 5/10 during sofd moments.

@riseoftherose is *b i g  s o f t* and sweet but also she’s the one who full name-drops and it *works* and that says something. not so Feral as just plain Powerful but there is a strength there and it is a thing to behold. mostly reactive to the feral behavior on the chat, not an instigator. i have seen her be feral, sorta, but its a rare occasion and usually has something to do with irl situarions. very interesting when it happens though! 2/10.

@p0p-r0x75 is a feral jack-in-the-box. silent for hours, no reaction. suddenly a pile of art appears out of the blue and the characters within are in amazingly angsty positions and all Rox will say is :))) and youre just left there spinning worrying about these poor Links and what the fuck have you done to them Rox what is vaati doing what have you d o n e??? and if you like the Zelda franchise and get him talking there is an absolute treasure trove of knowledge in that head and it is beautiful. 4/10.

@todorokitops is feral but like only from certain angles. like those 3d puzzles that when twisted suddenly become a bird. generally sweet and kind and gentle and fluffy and then BAM blizzard bakudeku pops up out of the blue, or fantasy spinner has had his wings and tails fucking chopped off for a lover who let him and you’re just like, wait, Wait, everything was ok and now i’m in emotional agony what the f u c k but also its beautiful and you *will* be back begging to be hurt again. also the sheer number of posts made with the shigaraki tupper has to count for some amount of feral. 6/10.

@ragingfangirl666 is a *b a b e y* and i want to hold her. she does get feral, and is a welcome member of owo jail from time to time! she also has, i think, 20 goddamn tuppers and you have to be a feral beast to keep up with that kind of nonsense. also somehow pumps out amazing quantities of fanart for the roleplays so fast its relevant to whats being actively written still and that's. that's godlike. 6/10

@jinx108 is subtly feral. stealth feral. quiet feral. its there, but you gotta look, and sometimes its v v secret. she likes to ask questions and make statements just to see what happens. she’s got a huge heart and when she gets excited about something she’s Really excited, and its so fun to watch her get going! 3/10.

@sergeantpurrito is mom. she is mum. she is the mother. she is not the feral, she cares for the feral. she is Good and Stable. lil bit of a fellow dice gremlin though, so little bit of feral cus Dice. 1/10

@pufftheminidragon is mai owo pawtnew in cwime and ai wowouwd defewnd ‘dem to da deaff! my wowondewfuww jaiwmate, my excewent fwiend, da one who maed da au wiff da fouw bad ends and da two good ends and we aww picked bad ends. Puffle da magnificent weed dwagon is a sowid 8/10 when peaking, and a 4, maybe 5/10 most of the time.

@friendly-neighborhood-pan is my child and i love them with my whole heart and i will defend them forever and ever and they are blessed and they are such a cryptid holy shit. all the feral in this baby is the mystique surrounding them, are they there? do they see you? are they lurking? are they working on a masterpiece to stealthdrop at three am? who knows! a mystery, all the time. but also babey. but also completely baffling. 8-9/10.

theres a couple more i could add but theyre kinda on the edges so like. i’ll add them later if asked? maybe? if i know them well enough?

[system-of-a-feather]

I hope your hiatus goes well! As for a more interesting ask tho, if you could have any bird in the world be your pet(with no limitations, like u could fulfill all their needs and everything), what kind of bird would you choose?

(TW, animal welfare; animal neglect, animal SH, infodump; Putting that out there because uh, I went on a tangent cause I am passionate; Short caps)

Man that is such a controversial topic for me XD Because I’m very firm in the sense that raptors and sort shouldn’t be in captivity beyond conservation purposes (and falconry for conservation) and if they are, they should be given maximum range - and for parrots that are in mass bred in environments not suited for them and its a large issue that we’ve kind of dug a whole into, so parrots shouldn’t be pets, but if you have to they should be companions with almost the entire time out of the cage so like XD

I have a reactive response to birds as pets but the theoretical “could fufill all their needs and everything” does cover some of that - though I also would still have to sit and question if the dynamic between a human and a wild bird could ever simultaneously exist with having all their needs fufilled so I’m sitting here rubbing my chin as a overly complicate an otherwise relatively simple question.

In leu of the honor of the original question and what I get the intent to be (aka, if there was ABSOLUTELY no issues and it was 100% possible to maintain both a human-bird bond with said animal while having their full life) it would probably be a toss up between a Harpy Eagle, Barn Owl, Secretary Bird, and California Condor.... maybe a penguin or cormorant if I had a really nice water bed. OR A RAVEN SINCE THEY BRING SHINIES BACK. It really would be a different answer to who you ask in the system though. I probably would go uh.... I actually really don’t know. I might actually go Snowy Owl..? Maybe? Aesthetically I’d go Secretary Bird but personality wise I’d like a Raven hmmm

I really can’t put a finger on a favorite bird. Raven I feel would probably be the easiest to both have a fully wild and free relationship with but also an individual bond that would be enjoyable, but I dunno. Its really hard of a question to answer

As for the more technical - I would probably take the question and warp it to the alternative loop hole question of - hey, you are saying I could provide for an animal’s needs entirely?

I would take in the honest to god most torn up - feather plucking - self mutilating - anxious depressed bird; probably a cockatoo breed, and take it in.

I actually have a habit of trying to take in really anxious, sad, or mistreated cockatiels in and trying to bring them up and let them behaviorally adjust to people and other birds a lot and its actually a dream goal to help parrots get a renewal on life since some live just as long as we do, but often are much much much more neglected throughout their entire life as dependents.

Like I can go on and on about it, but a lot of the longer living birds (cockatoos, african greys, etc) can be bred for money, bought for aesthetic, and treated poorly, abandoned or put for adoption and bounce from home to home to home that was not prepared for them and getting so many behavioral issues and “bird mental health” issues as I put simply and some really just dont get the chance to have a happy life. Some have a good owner until they are 30, then their owner dies and their owner’s family doesn’t want to care for them so they are sold or abandoned or put up for adoption and after living a great life are put into the cycles others do so like

One of my dreams if I ever get the money would be to legitimately have an Aviary and / or be a part of a parrot rehabilitation and rescue center XD I was actually up front with my fiance when I started dating that my future with caring for birds and adopting / fostering ones in need is something he would have to accept as my package / baggage or I will not under any circumstances proceed with a relationship XD

AND IM RANTING SO AT THE ANON THAT SAID RANT GO AHEAD I WISH I GOT THIS DONE FOR YOU BECAUSE I HAVEN’T FOUND A TOPIC TO RANT ABOUT FOR YOU AND HERE I AM RANTING ON THE WRONG ANON

But like, since I’m part ways on this tangent, lemme share one of my princesses that I’ve been caring for. (Quick photo below the keep reading)

[cue Riku gushing about their bird]

We got her from a previous owner that really couldn’t care for her and named her “Crash” because she kept crashing every time she flew (which is btw very dangerous - even if I noticed she seemed to learn how to “crash safely) and I really didn’t find the name cute cause it clearly was an issue - so I renamed her to Avery Rose - Avery being like Ivory + Avian and Rose cause I like Rose; but she also was REALLY terrified of hands and people and if a hand was within like 2 feet of her she’d panic - fly (or try to) and crash - and if you got her she’d bite like, right through your hand. I figure (vet wasn’t sure and didn’t want to do unnecessary invasive procedures to be sure) that she either has some joint / motor issue that makes it hard to fly or she has poor vision that makes her anxious. 

She also would pluck a lot out of stress and anxiety and isolation and stuff cause cockatiels are social birds and they need a lot of stimulus form their owner and/or other birds. She ALSO really didn’t get along with other birds either and would pretty much kinda avoid them. Even until today she kinda seems to miss the social cues of the other birds or not meld in since like, most birds get excited when small treats or “cookies” are brought over and they start pacing and heading to the food dishes, but she just kinda like.... waits or shows no interest XD

She’s a really unique personality. But anyways, my mom took her in originally and uh... as a typically kind of neglectful mom does, just kinda found her “too difficult” and just gave up on her, and I saw that and was like OH HELL NAH JUST CAUSE SHES REALLY ANXIOUS, SOCIALLY ABNORMAL, BITES HARD AND CRASHES DOES NOT MEAN YOU GET TO ABANDON HER so despite technically not signing up for it I was like “Mom she’s mine and I am taking over her care what you are doing is kind of cruel” 

And like, one of the flock members we have is the son of my first cockatiel who I helped raise (aside from his parents who primarily raised him) and socialized as he is now a bit of my personal emotional support birb, but with insistent help from me and I’m guessing bird support from a slightly younger and annoying boy birb that really liked her, she actually managed to learn out to fly REALLY well (like my boy, my son here literally like, kept doing small loops around and following her around until she got it and literally repetitively flew up and down to help her figure out how to land it melted my heart) and she actually really likes me specifically holding her and coddling her or hugging her, which I think might be because it might give her security.

She still plucks as it is one of those things that can follow a bird for life (though its getting better) and she is still anxious and really odd in social behaviors to the other birds, but she really seems to function in a happy life and she has a bird partner and a human mother and unlike before she can fly like any other bird and crashes rarely ever and like

She’s one of the things that I am most proud of seeing and lights up my world and I am SO god damn proud of her and she has LOWKEY been an inspiration for my recovery sometimes cause GOD do I love her XD

Her and her partner / “my boy / son” are the two birds that follow me to and from college and they seem to actually like car trips now? XD But they are my roommates and I love them immensely ;w;

Anon: What bird would you have if you could have any of them and treat them perfectly to their need

Me: DID YOU ASK ABOUT BIRD WELFARE, TECHNICALITIES AND PROBLEMS WITH BIRDS AS PETS (other than typically domesticated ones), MY DREAMS ABOUT SAVING ALL BIRDS IN THE WORLD AND THE STORY OF ONE OF MY BABY GIRLS AND HER MENTAL HEALTH JOURNEY?!

I apologize I do this sometimes :v I hope you enjoy my infodump / ramble

-Riku (Host)

[pairup-squareup]

why r u ep 3 thoughts

gripes!

It hasn’t gotten worse but god I hope we are swiftly moving past the exaggerated over the top comedy fear of being gay. I think we are, but I need it to lighten up on that angle.

very poor directors choice to have Sun creepily watch a passed out Hwahwa. It’s not his character at all, it was clearly not intended, but the image of a dude who has feelings for a person moving slowly closer to them as they are unconscious from alcohol is incredibly predatory.

i do not at all believe that was the intent, but it made me wince.

i will note the pacing in this ep was the best it’s been. there was still some extraneous stuff we didn’t need, but its definitely tightened up.

CONTENT!!!

finally i am getting a hold of fighter and tutor. I’ve got a handle on their characters now. Fighter is bad at everything emotional, and can’t stop escalating instead of pausing and taking a breath. Also, monumentally bad at self reflection.

Tutor? He’s a bit of a bastard, honestly. You get thrown off by Saint’s sweet angel face, but the actual character is fast tempered, and kind of a dick. This is not a bad thing. This makes this combo more interesting to me. I’m not into extreme bully/victim stuff, I need people to be able to stand their ground, or for the bullying to be pigtail pulling, to be a failure of communication of intent, not cruelty.

It feels like, and I may be wrong, but it looks like Fighter hasn’t intentionally gone into a relationship with Hwahwa to use her as a beard. He’s just a reactive dude who wants intimacy with Tutor but doesn’t understand why. A fool, but not a malicious one.

His and Tutor’s kiss scene made me want to start a brawl, lmao. 

Fighter: *kisses Tutor aggressively, without consent*

Me: siiigh, but i understand its a trope

Fighter, with an implied threat: Don’t tell anyone about this

Me: :|

Tutor: * calls Fighter/liking men abnormal, suggests he will out Fighter*

Me: ahh, I see you are also a motherfucker

but throughout this episode, we see Tutor coming to the actual realisation of what is motivating Fighter’s truly weird behaviour, even if Fighter himself hasn’t come to grips with it.

As i was saying to @bloubliette I can get behind bastard idiot/bastard with the capacity for thought and reflection. 

Their end scene was cute, especially Tutor looking at Fighter and having a Kanye moment.

“I hate when I'm on a flight and I wake up with a water bottle next to me like oh great now I gotta be responsible for this water bottle” 

but instead of a water bottle it’s Fighter.

 Saifah and Zon! My boys!

Love that we got to see more of Saifah this week, his character outside of his flirting and being gleefully irritating towards Zon.

He’s just a big puppy. Maybe because the actual actor is baby, he’s 19 (and still growing wtf the absolute size of this boy??) and it’s his first role, but they aren’t making him stretch beyond a more low key natural character, and it’s absolutely a good thing. He’s so goofy, and harmless. Even though the characters are the same age, Tutor was sort of herding him about. It’s cute. He’s lovely.

Again, I don’t feel any malice from him, and that changes everything about this story. Unlike Fighter, who is in a hell of his own making, Saifah isn’t stressed by why he likes getting reactions from Zon, why it makes him happy. And he immediately catches a fuckin clue. Smart puppy.

Zon. My heart. My dear. He’s so good. He is a comedic treasure. His expressions, his comic timing. Love a short boy going through a sexuality crisis in the dumbest way possible. Cannot wait for him and Saifah to start collaborating.

Even though there was as much extra cast as last time, I feel like they made them work much better then the past two episodes. Scenes didn’t feel crowded.

god this is a fucking novel. Alright, plus and minuses

+ zon getting bullied by his friends into doing the song. it made me laugh a lot. shouting high insoles at him? magic. brutal. also of note was him standing while everyone else hunched over or sat so he was tallest.

- homophobic moments with tutor lmao. i hope its a mistranslation but there’s a difference for me between the comedy bl panic and calling liking men ‘abnormal’. it probably won’t happen again, i take comfort in that

+(ish) look at least zol is asking people if they can be in her RPF, and blue was very enthusiastic

- immediately afterwards she is committing BL crimes. its half a step forward, a kilometre back with the RPF novel writing

+ there was this beautiful moment where Saifah looked almost afraid and said “you fall down easily” about Zon, after he caught him. Fear for his wellbeing? Potential jealousy that Zon could be someone elses? Self reflection? I don’t know what it is, but oddly it was the moment of the episode for me.

+ look i liked the dumbass bathroom mistaken sex bit and I won’t apologise. It was stupid and it made me laugh

- boners and the bare inkling of gay awakening aside, uncool of saifah to be like, i will dooo moooore while naked, and Zon feels trapped. i get it, i know the intent behind it, I know it wasn’t a threat, but its because their dynamic is loud Pomerianian has a Golden Retriever puppy fall in love with it, that it unsettled me.

- Sun better pick up his game, and Fighter better be more honest, because HwaHwa is a good kid, who just wants her bff and the boy she likes to get along, and instead she’s being fucked over.

Most coherent episode so far, character development, and the plot moves on, not too fast, or too slow. Almost despite myself, I like this show. It was satisfying. I hope they have more cameos though, I loved those.

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Being Alone, Benadryl, and Bones: A Social Butterfly, Playful Lad, Adorable Dumpling & Affectionate Babe Ceve MAXX ID# 47064 1 yr old and 68 adorable lbs Waiting for you @ Manhattan Animal Care Center INTAKE DATE: 07-17-2019 ADOPTED AS A PUPPY AND RETURNED JUST A FEW MONTHS LATER - MAXX IS STILL JUST THE CUTEST DUMPLING and SOCIAL BUTTERFLY! WHAT IS NOT TO LOVE ABOUT MAXX? ** A $500 stipend will be offered to the New Hope partner that pulls Maxx 47064. Please note that in order to qualify for the stipend, the animal cannot go to a boarding facility. ** A volunteer writes: MAXX is an adorable little big guy, just a plump baby at 1 year of age! He is so cute, tumbling down the yard, all excited, his mouth open, wagging his tail, flopping his ears and running after a ball. A silly and naive pup, full of expectations and belief that life is a huge bowl of fun! Maxx loves company: he calls for attention, lands on laps with his giant paws, licks faces, gives standing hugs and kisses, mouths gently and plays with the leash. Forgive me, forgive me, I am just a little one! Of course, who would be upset at you, you are so endearing! Maxx does sit on command, takes treats gently and seems to like very much other dogs, in particular the little ones. Well, he lived with a pretty ShihTzu girl and just adored her! What's not to love and like about Maxx? He is the cutest dumpling, a social butterfly, a playful lad, an affectionate babe and he loves other dogs! In a nutshell, Maxx is a great young pooch who will make your life lively, fun and sweet! Ask to meet Maxx at the Manhattan Care Center. They so want to be yours! MY MOVIES: Current Stay: Bella and Maxx in Playgroup https://youtu.be/rdiTVcbMt_o First Stay: Endearing puppy Maxx https://youtu.be/RpMwiMF0XKk MAXX, ID# 47064 1 yr old, 68.8 lbs Manhattan Animal Care Center Large Mixed Breed Cross, White / Brown Brindle Neutered Male, Owner Surrender Reason: owner surrender due to personal circumstances Shelter Assessment Rating: LEVEL 1 No young children (under 5) Medical Behavior Rating: BEHAVIOR NOTES Means of Surrender: 7/17/2019, Owner surrender, second stay in the care center (See original profile from first stay) SAFER ASSESSMENT: Date of assessment: 17-Jul-2019 Summary: Leash Walking Strength and pulling: Moderate Reactivity to humans: None Reactivity to dogs: None Leash walking comments: Sociability Loose in room (15-20 seconds): Highly social Call over: Approaches readily, soft, active Sociability comments: Handling Soft handling: Seeks contact, loose, jumping up Exuberant handling: Seeks contact, loose, jumping up Handling comments: Arousal Jog: Follows, loose Arousal comments: Knock Knock Comments: No interest Toy Toy comments: Minimal interest PLAYGROUP NOTES - DOG TO DOG SUMMARIES: SECOND STAY: 7/19/19: When introduced off leash to a female dog, Maxx engages in bouncy play. 7/20: Maxx greets politely but mostly displays anxious behavior, barking and seeking handler attention. FIRST STAY: 11/13/18: When introduced off leash to dogs, Maxx engages in soft play. INTAKE BEHAVIOR: Date of intake: 12-Nov-2018 Summary: Loose body, allowed handling, jumped up socially MEDICAL BEHAVIOR: Date of initial: 12-Nov-2018 Summary: Active, allowed handling ENERGY LEVEL: Maxx is described as having a very high level of activity. He is a young, enthusiastic, social dog who will need daily mental and physical activity to keep him engaged and exercised. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: Level 1 Behavior Asilomar H - Healthy Recommendations: No young children (under 5) Recommendations comments: No young children (under 5): Due to Maxx's overall exuberance, we feel he may be best set up to succeed in a home without young children at this time. Potential challenges: Basic manners/poor impulse control Potential challenges comments: Basic manners/poor impulse control: Maxx jumps up a lot in a social manner. It is recommended that default behaviors such as "Leave it", "Sit/Stay", "Down" are reinforced to substitute any frustration and teach him to control his impulses instead of simply reacting; proper management is also advised. Force-free, reward based training only is recommended MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 18-Jul-2019 Progress Exam HAD MALESAB BATH 18-Jul-2019 DVM Intake Exam Estimated age:1-2y Microchip noted on Intake? yes History : owner surrender due to personal circumstances Subjective: BAR Observed Behavior -Wagging tail and jumping on everyone in room. Allowed all handling with wiggly backside. Evidence of Cruelty seen - no Evidence of Trauma seen - no Objective T = P =wnl R =wnl BCS 6/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: mild dental tartar, dental disease stage 0/4 PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: male neutered MSI: Ambulatory x 4, generalized partial alopecia, crusts and pustules, no masses noted CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: normal external Assessment: generalized demodicosis overweight Prognosis: good Plan: dose afoxolaner for weight simplicef 200mg 1 sid x7d recheck skin in 4 weeks SURGERY: neutered -------------------------------------------------------- NOTES FIRST STAY / Intake: November 2018 MAXX, ID# 47064, 7 mos old, xx lbs, Manhattan Animal Care Center, Large Mixed Breed Cross, White / Brown Brindle Male, Owner Surrender Reason: Shelter Assessment Rating: Medical Behavior Rating: CAME IN WITH: Paris 47065 (small female dog, Maxx and Paris were very bonded and loved each other. Sadly they were adopted to different homes - Paris is still adopted.) OWNER SURRENDER NOTES 2018: Maxx came in to our facilities as an owner surrender due to his owners both recently having big surgeries that have severely inhibited their capabilities to care for Maxx and Paris 47065. Maxx is a white and brown brindle large mixed breed neutered male who is 7 months old. His previous owners had him since he was about 30 days old and got him six months ago. He previously lived with 2 adults. Around strangers, Maxx is friendly and outgoing. He will play excitedly with adults. Maxx has been around children ages 2 and 15 years old, respectively. Around them, he is relaxed, respectful, and playful. He will play exuberantly with children. Maxx has never been around cats before. Maxx has no resource guarding behaviors. He has never bitten another animal or human. He is housetrained and his previous owenr describes his energy level as very high. Other Notes: Paris has also lived with birds and she was described as getting along peacefully with them. Maxx is not bothered if held or restrained, if disturbed while sleeping or resting, or if given a bath. Maxx will allow his nails to be trimmed and to be brushed. He is friendly towards strangers that approach his family and he will bark if he hears someone in the hallway. Has this dog ever had any medical issues? Yes Medical Notes: Maxx currently presents signs of an allergy. After going to the vet once, a diagnosis was not able to be reached. For a New Family to Know Maxx is described as being friendly, affectionate, playful, pushy, and excitable. He likes to follow you around when you are home but will also stay away if you tell him to stay in one part of the room. He likes to play with bones. He does not play any games. He has been kept indoors only. He slept in a dog bed that was located in the living room. He was fed one can of wet food in the morning and one at night with dry food in between. He also ate chicken and vegetables. He prefers the small bite variety of dry food. He is very house trained and does not have accidents. He will use the bathroom on any surface outside, as well as on wee wee pads. When left home alone, he is well behaved. He has never been left alone in a yard. He has been crate trained and will do well for 1-2 hours. He knows the command sit. Due to both owners' declining health, he has not been walked outside as often as of late. He pulls very hard on the leash. His favorite thing to do is play with Paris 47065. The owners' favorite things about Maxx are how active, close to his owner he is, and how loving and affectionate he is. INTAKE BEHAVIOR - DATE OF INTAKE: Upon intake, Maxx was very energetic and often leapt up at counselors and other staff. He was very upset when separated from Paris 47065 and began to whine and howl. He had a loose, wiggly body and a wagging tail. He allowed all handling including collaring, scanning for a microchip, and taking a photograph. BEHAVIOR NOTES Means of surrender (length of time in previous home): Owner Surrender, 1st stay in the care center Previously lived with: Adults Behavior toward strangers: Friendly and outgoing Resource guarding: None reported Bite history: None reported Housetrained: Yes Energy level/descriptors: Maxx is described as friendly, affectionate, playful, pushy, and excitable with a very high level of activity. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 12-Nov-2018 DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: 7m Microchip noted on Intake? yes Microchip Number (If Applicable): 985112010540149 History : owner surrender Subjective: BARH, unremarkable appetite or defecation Observed Behavior - very energetic, will howl when not in sight of bond mate Evidence of Cruelty seen - no Evidence of Trauma seen - no Objective P = wnl R = wnl BCS 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears warm and pink, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: unremarkable PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: NSR, NMA, CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: male neutered, no leakage or discharge MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat, multiple areas of alopecia with reddened skin and scale with lick associated abrasions CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: visually normal Assessment dermatitis unspecified allergies Prognosis: good Plan: simplicef 10 mg/kg SID for 14 days benadryl 75mg PO BID for 5 days *** TO FOSTER OR ADOPT *** If you would like to adopt a NYC ACC dog, and can get to the shelter in person to complete the adoption process, you can contact the shelter directly. We have provided the Brooklyn, Staten Island and Manhattan information below. Adoption hours at these facilities is Noon – 8:00 p.m. (6:30 on weekends) If you CANNOT get to the shelter in person and you want to FOSTER OR ADOPT a NYC ACC Dog, you can PRIVATE MESSAGE our Must Love Dogs page for assistance. PLEASE NOTE: You MUST live in NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Northern VA. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a NYC ACC dog. Transport is available if you live within the prescribed range of states. Shelter contact information: Phone number (212) 788-4000 Email adopt@nycacc.org Shelter Addresses: Brooklyn Shelter: 2336 Linden Boulevard Brooklyn, NY 11208 Manhattan Shelter: 326 East 110 St. New York, NY 10029 Staten Island Shelter: 3139 Veterans Road West Staten Island, NY 10309 *** NEW NYC ACC RATING SYSTEM *** Level 1 Dogs with Level 1 determinations are suitable for the majority of homes. These dogs are not displaying concerning behaviors in shelter, and the owner surrender profile (where available) is positive. Level 2 Dogs with Level 2 determinations will be suitable for adopters with some previous dog experience. They will have displayed behavior in the shelter (or have owner reported behavior) that requires some training, or is simply not suitable for an adopter with minimal experience. Level 3 Dogs with Level 3 determinations will need to go to homes with experienced adopters, and the ACC strongly suggest that the adopter have prior experience with the challenges described and/or an understanding of the challenge and how to manage it safely in a home environment. In many cases, a trainer will be needed to manage and work on the behaviors safely in a home environment.

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What are Limiting Beliefs

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What are Limiting Beliefs

What are Limiting Beliefs?

The two biggest reasons why entrepreneurs fail to even begin, or to overcome obstacles are Fear and Limiting Beliefs.

The quote above is from Jordan Belfort in “The Wolf of Wall Street”, and on the surface, it basically sounds like he is chastising the people that justify their inability to succeed at something with one excuse or another [the story].

But really, it goes much deeper than that, if you really take a moment to think about it.

When it comes to motivating people, there are TWO (2) governing factors:

People Will Do Things to Experience Pleasure.

Or, people Do Things to Avoid Pain.

Within that framework, other “Laws of Behavior”  also operate.  For instance:

The Majority of People are Reactive, rather than Pro-Active.

They will take as much as they can tolerate.

When making a change, they will follow the Path of Least Resistance.

The reason I wanted to lay this out in front of you first is simple.  In order to really understand Limiting Beliefs, you need to understand Motivation.  Keeping in mind the Laws of B, of course.

The Root Cause Of Limiting Beliefs

Our brain has not evolved much in several tens of thousands of years.  We don’t really think that much different from our cavemen ancestors.  We know a lot more, but in terms of thinking, its pretty much the same.  In other words, our logic circuits are still what they used to be in the stone age.

Life was not as easy then, as it is now.  In those days, if you wanted to eat, you had to hunt. By the same token, you had to avoid those who hunted you.  As you aged, you would lose the ability to provide for yourself and your dependents.  People were also more survival-driven (selfish).  The result was very low life-expectancy.  So, from an evolutionary point of view, our brain was primed to trigger self-preservation early-on, through Fear and Pain.

In order to survive, our brains interpret things that we NEED for survival in terms of “pleasure”.  Our bodies, for instance, want to be at a certain temperature.  Too much heat is uncomfortable, and too much cold is uncomfortable.   When we are hungry, it feels uncomfortable.  Fulfilling that need created a feeling of pleasure, which we instinctively want to continue to experience.

Lacking a NEED triggers a form of “pain”.  We then tolerate it, until it reaches our “Action Threshold“, and we do something about it.  Such as showering (vs heat) or covering up (vs cold) or eating (vs hunger).  This is very different than wanting something.  Wanting is when something would be nice, but it can be lived without.  A NEED is a pervasive requirement that demands satisfaction (or prevention).

What is an “Action Threshold”?

Our Action Threshold is the point at which a “Pain Point” can no longer be tolerated.

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For instance, the body needs water and energy to survive.  When the body lacks either one, our brain creates a “Pain Point” of hunger and/or thirst.  Then we tolerate it until we cross our “Action Threshold” (usually a stomach grumbling, nausea and headaches) and actively look for nourishment.  All of these pain points are created in our mind to “force” us into an Action.  In this case, to find nourishment, in order to experience pleasure.

Now, the “Action Threshold” may vary from person to person, but it WILL trigger.  At some point.

Now, ignoring the trigger will most likely lead to a rather unpleasant consequence.  And our brain learns from that consequence.  It creates an instinct-level response to the unpleasant consequences it encounters.  It further attempts to spur you into the “Action Threshold” to make you avoid experiencing that pain.  That process is what we call Fear.

Fear: Friend or Foe?

At its most basic level, fear is a good thing.  It ensures we stay safe and alive.  When our minds perceive a threat, fear kicks in.  It triggers something called “Fight or Flight”.  I’m sure you’ve heard the term before.

It basically means, that your mind quickly assesses the threat.  If your mind believes in can overcome it, you will fight.  If your mind believes it cannot, you will flee.  Its basic, primal and  instinctual.

But let me go ahead and propose another axom:

To much of anything, is bad.

Especially Fear.  Fear begins programming the mind, from a very early age.  This fear imposes limits, that your mind continues to believe, long after those limits no longer hold true.

The Limits that Hold You Back Exist Mostly In Your Mind

Take for instance a horse.

When that horse was a baby, he most likely went a “breaking” process to “teach” him the limits that keep them docile and obedient.  At one point he was attach to a metal bar, and the horse did his best efforts to free himself, until he hurt himself.  When he reached that level of pain, Fear taught him: it’s useless to resist.  Don’t even bother.

So now, that horse could be tied to a plastic chair, but in his mind, all the horse knows is that he is tied to something, and thus, he can’t move.  He perceives himself to be tied, and he believes fighting against the rope will cause pain.  So, he has simply stopped trying.

His mind has learned a limiting belief.  How to overcome this?

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Breaking a Limiting Belief

Imagine for a moment, our caveman, from the paragraph above.

Bambatta and four men are out hunting wild boar the latest technology available to them:  a thick broken tree branch with a sharp, uneven edge.  They use that to herd and kill wild boar.  Bambatta really, does the hard part, the rest only help herd and then carry the goods.

One day a leopard comes.  Bambatta, the poor fearless bastard, has never fought a leopard before, so he attacks it using the same strategy he uses on the boar.  But the leopard, is fast, can leap, and besides fangs, has terrible claws.  He never stood a chance.

The four men flee and recount the story to the rest of the tribe.  The tribesmen have now just learned a limiting fear: If a leopard comes in, flee.  There is no point in fighting it because if the mighty Bambatta failed, so will we.  What chance have we got?  The leopard is fast, and has fangs and claws that we can’t match.

The tribe has just learned a limiting belief.  The next time a leopard comes, they will flee or hide.  Fighting the leopard is just impossible.  So the tribe elects Karnak, the second strongest to lead the hunting party.  Everytime they run unto a leopard though, the hunt halts, everyone hides or runs.  No one wants to be the leopard’s dinner.  No one will fight it.  It’s just not possible.

Necessity is the Mother of Innovation

It is (impossible), at least until one day, Turok (one of the smaller hunters) asks himself – well what if found a way to have a claw as well?  He sees himself dealing the leopard a mighty blow with a stick that has a hard rock attached to it.  What if I could find a stone with a point, and attach it to a smaller branch (a handle).  Something I could swing and recover from very quickly.  Something that will land a lethal blow if it hits in the right place.  What if?

So Turok works on his new weapon, a hammer until he works out a way to attach the rock to the handle.  When it is ready, he hides it under his furs and off they go.  When the leopard finally shows up, everyone runs to hide.  All except Turok, who produces his hammer and teases the leopard.

So far, the leopard has easily dispatched any and all humans it encounters, so it has no fear of the wiry little caveman in front of him.  It charges, and Turok swings.  A Big thud on the leopard’s skull.  The leopard dies.

And now, just like that, the impossible is now possible.

There will of course, be those who don’t believe the story when they hear it.  Turok killed the leopard?  Rubbish.  T-Rex probably stepped on it and you guys picked it up.

If there is one thing humanity has, is haters have existed as long as heroes have.

But while many won’t believe the tale, the witnesses saw it.  A regular guy, just like any of them achieved the impossible.  And now all of them can see themselves succeeding against the leopard IF they have the same tool that Turok used.

The Limiting Beliefs have now been dispelled.

How Does That Apply To Me?

Think about it for a moment.  From the time we start crawling, our life becomes a long series of “No”.  You can’t do this.  You can’t do that.  Why?  Because I said so.  Life isn’t fair?  Its not supposed to be.  Shut up.  Be quiet.  Don’t complain.

And then school starts, a whole new set of rules and limits are imposed.

Gotta wake up early.  Gotta memorize this.  Gotta pass this test.  Gotta spend hours on homework.  No you can’t have this, no you can’t have that.  If you want to get something, get good grades, so you can get a good job, and you can buy it yourself.

By the time we reach adulthood, we have so many insecurities and limiting beliefs backing us, that is no wonder than 80% of the population is unhappy with their current situation, and only 20% [of the world’s population] is.  And of those 20%, most (80%) only enjoy a comfortable life with broad limits, and only the top 20% live a truly limitless life.  And by the same token, of that original 80% of the population, the bottom 20% live in abject poverty.

Now, why is that?

Because the Only Thing Standing Between You and Your Goal, is the B@#$%^&t story you keep telling yourself.

You may not be aware you are even doing it, but deep down you are.

Subconsciously, your mind imagines the feelings you will have if you try and fail.  Your conscious mind tells you the cost of failure.  And if you happen to open up to someone with your goals and dreams, chances are they will shut you down with their own limiting beliefs as well.

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How to Break the Cycle

I will discuss this topic deeper in another article, but for the time being, I am going to gloss over what you need to in order to suspend your Limiting Beliefs.

Take a look at the horse in the image above.  All that horse is seeing, is that he is tied to something, and in the past, if he has tried to resist it, he experiences failure, or pain.  So he tries to avoid it altogether.

The horse is seeing a Limit to his movement, and is refusing to take action (walk away) because in his mind, it is futile to even try.

Now think about a single pain point in your life.  Something that really bothers you.  It might be lack of money, lack of time, or a health issue.  Just figure what is the one thing that bothers you most about your current situation.

Try not to think of it in terms of money.  Everybody needs, or at least wants, money.  And believe me, at the end of the day, and in spite of what everybody says, money does solve a lot of problems.  But I digress.  Big Pain Point.  Specific.

Once you have it, determine how long you have had to live with this particular pain point.  It might be three months, a year, or five.  Then figure assign a rating to that pain point.  We are trying to self-realize exactly how high is that pain point in our life.

At this point, we have a strong pain point that you tolerate, but has you on the edge.  Now imagine that pain point a little worse.  Is it still tolerable?  Now make it a little worse.  Do this until you simply can’t see yourself tolerating it anymore.  What would it take to drive you to take a drastic action to reduce the pain point?  Can you see yourself there?

What emotion is it triggering?  In other words, in the worst case scenario, what is the consequence of this pain point?  Sorrow?  Anger?  Guilt?  Shame?  Physical Pain?

This is your worst fear come to fruition.  This is the scenario that your subconscious brain is trying to protect you from.  Bring it to the fore.  See it consciously.

And now work backwards.  What needs to happen for me not to be here?

This is called an “Exit Strategy” and it is what all successful people do to prepare themselves for worst case scenarios.  They see their worst fear, and then they work… no… they PLOW through it.  They don’t ignore the consequences.  They see their fear in the face.  Then they plan for it.  And then they take action.

Remember, the key thing that successful people know is:

If you continue doing what you have always done, you will continue getting the same results.

Whatever situation you are in right now, is a direct results of habits and decisions you make.  Identify which habits and decisions are taking you to your pain points, and work yourself backwards to figure out which ones need changing, and what changes are needed.

In summary: First, Identify a Limit. Second, Visualize its worst case scenario.  Third, from that point, think backwards, “What needs to happen to avoid this?”, and finally, “Take Action”.

Doing it alone is very difficult, especially if you are unable to step outside of yourself and see yourself, your habits and your actions in an objective manner.  For this reason, I recommend talking to a professional or a Life Coach.